For this very much exposing session, I now scroll back to a very recent memory I once had that I am going to use as my case study. Though troubling in mind, I thought to myself, still, I am open for sharing to uncover the many hidden lessons that were exposed and expressed in this one event. I share with you this dream:
04.06.23 at 5:10 am
Just woke up from a dream. It played out as if in various scenes. This is what I saw.
Just woke up from a dream. It played out as if in various scenes. This is what I saw.
Scene 1
I remembered someone who I knew offering me a very shallow cup. When I looked at the cup, it seemed to contain two rolls of chocolate- colored, fully formed stool mildly sitting in the cup, just looking over the brim of the cup. This was my first impression. As I continued to study the cup, there was also water, quite clear and pristine that covered the base of the cup. I distinctly remembered the sensation of thirst. I was really thirsty. But I also considered the sterility of the water. This person handed me the cup. As I received the cup, I noticed the level of water starting to grow. This person wanted me to drink the water. I told this person that I was not going to drink it. Then the scene changed.
Scene 2
I found myself in this room. It was a classroom. There was a guy in the classroom. While I walked, looking to find a seat, I noticed this guy. His head remained fixed watching down towards the floor. As I passed near to him in search of a seat, there was another girl who just appeared out of nowhere who seemed to be walking past the point where I was also walking. As she was passing, the guy lifted his head, looked at her and began talking with this girl. I heard much conversation, almost as a banter between this guy and the girl. In my head, I thought to just work towards ignoring all that I was hearing. I tried so hard to not watch in their direction for the entire duration. Then the scene changed again, yet still finding myself in the same classroom.
Scene 3
So, now I am finally seated in this classroom. And I find myself being seated next this other guy. Sigh! This guy. He turned straight towards me and started laughing. I remembered him mocking me, making really suggestive comments. He kept pointing and repeating the words of ‘sagging’ breasts as he continuously laughed. I just sat still for the duration of the mocking session. I held my tongue. Then the scene changed again.
Scene 4
I found myself in a different space this time. It seemed to be a type of simulation room. I heard someone talking to me, but I couldn’t see clearly who it was. Whoever it was, kept talking much about how he prefers someone else over me. And he went on to give clear-cut reasons why this was the case. I do remember, there was a moment when a hint of jealousy entered, though I still kept silent. I gave in and accepted his personal choice. I gave in to another's pick and respected another’s decision, while remaining silent. I listened and allowed him to express all that he had to say. Then the scene changed one last time.
Scene 5
I saw a door closing in on me and then I heard these thoughts; thoughts more centered around being useless, for being childless. I heard thoughts of condemnation. This thought kept informing me that because I bore no child, it means I am going to be consumed by fire. For God only considers a woman who bears a child. I did see the flames coming. I really did. I also saw this door closing in on me. Yet my only response was: So, let it be.
Then I woke up.
Then I woke up.
Now, I won’t lie. This dream was a little bit funny. This was what I thought to myself on waking up. Though being roasted for the entire duration, I couldn’t help but laugh, but only, just for a little bit. This dream also plays out to be a real concept in the lives of many women. This is no joke. This is real life. It is for this reason, why I thought it best to expose this thought process, for further study and understanding of what it may potentially mean to be walking with much blind faith.
I now work towards dissecting the contents of this dream.
I go back to the first scene. There was the element of stool, mixed in with the element of water. I consider then, the element of hunger and thirst. This is real stuff! Here, one can see the body being offered up to the sense of hunger or thirst. One is first placed in a position of much thirst, only to be later offered a drink, not the cleanliest of sorts. This raises the test of the bodily senses and sensations. And of these senses, the sense of taste, touch, thirst comes to mind as the subject of what is being tested. This type of test in not new. In fact, there is nothing new under the sun.
I find a somewhat similar example of this test when I read from the book of Matthew Chapter four:
1 Then the Spirit led Jesus into the desert that He be put to the test by the devil.
2 After spending forty days and nights without food, Jesus was hungry,
3 Then the devil came to Him and said, “If you are the Son of God, order these stones to turn into bread.”
4 But Jesus answered, “Scripture says: one does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.”
I also read from the book of Psalm Chapter sixty- nine:
21 Dishonour has driven me to despair; I look for sympathy and there was none, for comforters and there was no one.
22 The gave me poison for food and vinegar to drink.
Now I read from the book of Matthew Chapter twenty- seven:
32 On the way they met a man from Cyrene called Simon, and forced him to carry the cross of Jesus.
33 When they reached the place called Golgotha (or Calvary) which means the Skull,
34 they offered Him wine mixed with gall. Jesus tasted it but would not take it.
It is clear and also understandable, that the defense to such an offence is to always remember that man, indeed, does not live on bread alone. Hunger, then, may be used as a weapon to disarm one, if one is not aware that indeed, he still can live, even without the earthly bread. For this man lives by faith. When man does not succumb to the bodily pressure of hunger or even thirst, he is forced to rely on spiritual means to receive and treat with his needs and nourishment. This is a teaching point. When there is no food, man enters into his fasting state, which for him, is his personal wilderness experience, as he learns to rest on the strength of the Father through His Spirit.
I now take on the second scene. This scene speaks to the element of being made to feel invisible. I highlight the key words ‘made to feel’. Is one actually invisible? Of course not. But some persons make for great actors and can totally put on a play. It is interesting though, for I love to study personality types. And I can usually read between the lines. When one walks alone in this thing called life, it is so much easier to see the stage as it really is. There is no distraction.
This scene makes for an interesting point. For it raises the personal question of the sense of worth or security. I have a question. Who exactly gives worth to a person? This is an absolutely important question that one must first figure out, ‘Where is my worth coming from’. I am very sure that persons love to give worth to others, through either giving attention or withholding it. So, a sense of worth is really the test in this scene.
I dig deeper into thought. I go on further. I ask. So, if one witnesses another receiving a really flattering statement, does that event add or take away the worth of this one? Of course not! A thought, then, must be inserted in that one, to be entirely neutral to whether that one receives much attention, or receives very little.
I go back to the book of Matthew Chapter four:
8 Then the devil took Jesus to a very high mountain and showed him all the nations of the world in all their greatness and splendour. And he said,
9 “All this I will give you, if you kneel and worship me.”
10 Then Jesus answered “Be off, Satan! Scripture says: worship the Lord your God and serve Him alone.”
11 Then the devil left him and angels came to serve him.
The above verses depict for me, the sense of wanting to “be somebody” and feel “on top of the world”. The above verses depict for me the sense of worth. Truthfully though, EVERYONE wants to feel recognized. I do not know anyone who wants to feel unappreciated or even underappreciated for what they do, yet the question of self-worth and how one sees himself or values himself, this changes with time and experience.
The answer becomes distilled when one reflects on verse ten. It is the Lord alone, who gives all of his creations the worth that He chooses for each one, as He created them to be. The worth of that one rests with His God. Worth rests with the Heavenly Father. Not always would one believe that they are indeed, worthy of love and care. This also speaks to believing much with blind faith. Not always is it easy to feel and believe that one can actually be loved. Situations and expressions of others can express an entirely different picture. But I keep remembering those actors on the scene. And I too can play my part in blindly believing in the love that my Father has for me.
I read from the book of Romans Chapter eight:
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I now review the third scene. This scene addresses the event of being mocked and humiliated. I think to myself...
It is much easier for the one to ridicule or even castigate the thing that he does not understand. The still heart receives much understanding.
Mockery and Humiliation are very commonly used tactics that are applied when one is on a particular mission. When one is now thinking about starting a project or playing with a new idea, usually this idea becomes heavily attacked with much ridicule and opposition. Mockery is the tool used to oppose and humiliation is the experience that one goes through in scaling the height of distraction and thick wall of resistance.
I remember the words taken from the book of Nehemiah Chapter four:
1 Now when Sanballat heard that we were building the wall, he was angry and greatly enraged, and he jeered at the Jews.
2 And he said in the presence of his brothers and of the army of Samaria, “What are these feeble Jews doing? Will they restore it for themselves? Will they sacrifice? Will they finish up in a day? Will they revive the stones out of the heaps of rubbish, and burned ones at that?”
3 Tobiah the Ammonite was beside him, and he said, “Yes, what they are building—if a fox goes up on it he will break down their stone wall!”
4 Hear, O our God, for we are despised. Turn back their taunt on their own heads and give them up to be plundered in a land where they are captives.
I continue to read from this Chapter.
6 So we rebuilt the wall till all of it reached half its height, for the people worked with all their heart.
7 But when Sanballat, Tobiah, the Arabs, the Ammonites and the people of Ashdod heard that the repairs to Jerusalem’s walls had gone ahead and that the gaps were being closed, they were very angry.
8 They all plotted together to come and fight against Jerusalem and stir up trouble against it.
9 But we prayed to our God and posted a guard day and night to meet this threat.
13 Therefore I stationed some of the people behind the lowest points of the wall at the exposed places, posting them by families, with their swords, spears and bows.
14 After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.”
These encouraging words also bring back to my memory the encouraging words spoken by Moses, while in the wilderness.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14: 14)
I now reflect on the fourth scene. This scene brings to character the element of being overlooked as an option. It may very well bring on the sense of jealousy; when no longer is one being considered by someone for something. Jealousy is a very real emotion. But the main point is that, it is an emotion. Jealously very much rests inside a much passionate heart. It is therefore important, to decipher the things that one keeps in his heart. It also goes back to the test of worth. Is it really worth it to keep holding on to an idea, that doesn’t really want to be held on to for any longer? Is it really worth it? I think for a moment...
Now, there is at least one condition in Scripture where I have cited jealousy being used an effective tool to serve God.
Interestingly, I read from the first book of Kings Chapter nineteen:
12 After the earthquake, a fire, but Yahweh was not in the fire. After the fire, the murmur of a gentle breeze.
13 When Elijah perceived it, he covered his face with his cloak, went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. The he heard a voice addressing him again. “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
14 He answered, “I am burning with jealous love for Yahweh, the God of hosts, because the Israelites have forsaken your covenant, thrown down the altars and slain your prophets with the sword. No one is left but myself, yet they still seek my life to take it away.
From the above verses, it can be witnessed that Elijah felt quite strongly about how God’s children abandoned the ways of the Father. He felt so much, that it took him to a much jealous place. He had great zeal for the love of God. And he expressed such! It is to say then, that jealously can be re-worked for God’s glory. For God Himself, is a very jealous God and to no other does He give His honour. Just as God is jealous for His ways, so too, does He expect His children to be equally zealous for His ways. Never does He want to see His children live in ways outside of His own way.
“If you love Me, keep My commandments. And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever-- (John 14: 15,16)
As I reflect on the above, I come to some conclusion. There is nothing else to hold on to for jealousy’s sake. For everything in the world, that is not standing in the Will of God is sure to fade. This is sure and true. It is for that one then, to not grow faint of heart when one eventually becomes overlooked at some point in his life. What matters more, however, is the lessons that one can take with him, wherever he is to go. All one truly has is his own life lessons to learn from and treasure. There is nothing created, nothing at all, that one can take with him on his life journey besides the love of Christ; besides the love that the Father has for His children. Nothing! All one has is the love of the Father.
I read from the first book of John Chapter two:
15 Do not love the world or what is in it. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in Him.
16 for everything in the world- the craving of flesh, the greed of eyes and people boasting of their superiority- all this belongs to the world, not to the Father.
17 The world passes away with all its craving but those who do the will of God remain forever.
And now, on to the final scene! A woman’s barrenness. Should she be ashamed? Hmm... I always found this to be thought-provoking. Woman! I always laugh at how the Father designed woman to be this fancy creature, full of extra accessories. Quite the fancy build! Anyway... I move on in much thought.
I can’t help myself. I must go on in my expression. I find woman to be a peculiar build. You see. When I think of the womb and I study her, when I study her ways and her antics, I cannot help but think that God designed the womb for Himself. This is what tickles my mind the most.
A woman has literally, I mean literally NO control over her womb. When the womb decides, she starts her menstruation. Then the womb decides when she wants to bleed, how long a season or how short a season.
A woman can never decide the contents that leave her womb or even the quantity of such.
She can’t decide how these come out; the speed and direction.
She can’t decide what hour the baby leaves her pregnant womb.
She cannot even decide which position to station her womb.
All these decisions are taken executively and are taken by the Lord Himself. What can she do?
A woman, simply has no control over this portion of her body. For her part, all she can do is simply witness life happening to her and through her as she grows through her womanly phases.
But the womb, this is definitely the Lord’s portion. A woman’s womb is her greatest mystery. Sigh! So, now I ask, should a woman be ashamed of her barrenness?
A woman may decide to feel how she wants, but objectively speaking, woman is only part of God’s plan. A woman’s purpose rests on her Maker’s plan for her life. No one else, but her Maker decides the story of her life. She herself, does not write her own story when it boils down to her fertility. This is God’s greatest gift to humanity and He decides who and where to lay down His seeds. This power ultimately rests in the Hands of God. I pause here.
Woman; a vessel specially crafted by the Lord. When the Lord thinks to birth a nation, He considers woman as part of His plan. But not just any woman. He searches the heart of that faithful woman.
A faithful woman is a well-prized woman.
Listen, daughter, and pay careful attention: Forget your people and your father’s house. Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord. The city of Tyre will come with a gift, people of wealth will seek your favor. All glorious is the princess within her chamber; her gown is interwoven with gold. In embroidered garments she is led to the king; her virgin companions follow her— those brought to be with her. Led in with joy and gladness, they enter the palace of the king. Your sons will take the place of your fathers; you will make them princes throughout the land. I will perpetuate your memory through all generations; therefore the nations will praise you for ever and ever. (Psalm 45: 10-17)
“Sing, barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband,” says the Lord. (Isaiah 54: 1)
So, I am not going to challenge this final test. Nope! Not me.
You see. The battle of fertility rests not with the enemy, it ultimately rests with the Lord Himself. It is the Lord who opens and closes wombs. It is the Lord who mysteriously brings one to meet his mate. It is the Lord who is the Guardian and Protector when it comes to fertility. After all, this is the gift of life and I respect much. And I also respect His timing. And I also respect His decisions.
It is simply then, to just trust even if one does not see in his lifetime, the things hoped for. It is believing even when nothing at all comes to fruition. The womb is the womb. But think of the womb of life. What if all that was hoped for actually amounts to nothing, would one still believe? I go back to the question of worth. For, there is something unique that stands out quite drastically when it comes to blind faith.
For sure, one may be blind. He does not see. But one feels! One feels that feeling of being upheld. One feels that feeling of being delivered from that wish or way of wishful thinking. One becomes renewed in mind to not even want in the first place. One starts to no longer care. For that one has received a love so pure that nothing else really matters, but to be under the influence of pure Love. That is, to be under the influence of the Father, indulging in all of His fruits.
The Father loans His child the fruit of peace, discipline, gentleness, patience and understanding to help him endure and reach his maturation point, in faith. The Father waits for the fullness of time as man’s faith matures to bear much fruit; fruit that will last. This is the case of walking with Blind Faith.
I now work towards dissecting the contents of this dream.
I go back to the first scene. There was the element of stool, mixed in with the element of water. I consider then, the element of hunger and thirst. This is real stuff! Here, one can see the body being offered up to the sense of hunger or thirst. One is first placed in a position of much thirst, only to be later offered a drink, not the cleanliest of sorts. This raises the test of the bodily senses and sensations. And of these senses, the sense of taste, touch, thirst comes to mind as the subject of what is being tested. This type of test in not new. In fact, there is nothing new under the sun.
I find a somewhat similar example of this test when I read from the book of Matthew Chapter four:
1 Then the Spirit led Jesus into the desert that He be put to the test by the devil.
2 After spending forty days and nights without food, Jesus was hungry,
3 Then the devil came to Him and said, “If you are the Son of God, order these stones to turn into bread.”
4 But Jesus answered, “Scripture says: one does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.”
I also read from the book of Psalm Chapter sixty- nine:
21 Dishonour has driven me to despair; I look for sympathy and there was none, for comforters and there was no one.
22 The gave me poison for food and vinegar to drink.
Now I read from the book of Matthew Chapter twenty- seven:
32 On the way they met a man from Cyrene called Simon, and forced him to carry the cross of Jesus.
33 When they reached the place called Golgotha (or Calvary) which means the Skull,
34 they offered Him wine mixed with gall. Jesus tasted it but would not take it.
It is clear and also understandable, that the defense to such an offence is to always remember that man, indeed, does not live on bread alone. Hunger, then, may be used as a weapon to disarm one, if one is not aware that indeed, he still can live, even without the earthly bread. For this man lives by faith. When man does not succumb to the bodily pressure of hunger or even thirst, he is forced to rely on spiritual means to receive and treat with his needs and nourishment. This is a teaching point. When there is no food, man enters into his fasting state, which for him, is his personal wilderness experience, as he learns to rest on the strength of the Father through His Spirit.
I now take on the second scene. This scene speaks to the element of being made to feel invisible. I highlight the key words ‘made to feel’. Is one actually invisible? Of course not. But some persons make for great actors and can totally put on a play. It is interesting though, for I love to study personality types. And I can usually read between the lines. When one walks alone in this thing called life, it is so much easier to see the stage as it really is. There is no distraction.
This scene makes for an interesting point. For it raises the personal question of the sense of worth or security. I have a question. Who exactly gives worth to a person? This is an absolutely important question that one must first figure out, ‘Where is my worth coming from’. I am very sure that persons love to give worth to others, through either giving attention or withholding it. So, a sense of worth is really the test in this scene.
I dig deeper into thought. I go on further. I ask. So, if one witnesses another receiving a really flattering statement, does that event add or take away the worth of this one? Of course not! A thought, then, must be inserted in that one, to be entirely neutral to whether that one receives much attention, or receives very little.
I go back to the book of Matthew Chapter four:
8 Then the devil took Jesus to a very high mountain and showed him all the nations of the world in all their greatness and splendour. And he said,
9 “All this I will give you, if you kneel and worship me.”
10 Then Jesus answered “Be off, Satan! Scripture says: worship the Lord your God and serve Him alone.”
11 Then the devil left him and angels came to serve him.
The above verses depict for me, the sense of wanting to “be somebody” and feel “on top of the world”. The above verses depict for me the sense of worth. Truthfully though, EVERYONE wants to feel recognized. I do not know anyone who wants to feel unappreciated or even underappreciated for what they do, yet the question of self-worth and how one sees himself or values himself, this changes with time and experience.
The answer becomes distilled when one reflects on verse ten. It is the Lord alone, who gives all of his creations the worth that He chooses for each one, as He created them to be. The worth of that one rests with His God. Worth rests with the Heavenly Father. Not always would one believe that they are indeed, worthy of love and care. This also speaks to believing much with blind faith. Not always is it easy to feel and believe that one can actually be loved. Situations and expressions of others can express an entirely different picture. But I keep remembering those actors on the scene. And I too can play my part in blindly believing in the love that my Father has for me.
I read from the book of Romans Chapter eight:
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I now review the third scene. This scene addresses the event of being mocked and humiliated. I think to myself...
It is much easier for the one to ridicule or even castigate the thing that he does not understand. The still heart receives much understanding.
Mockery and Humiliation are very commonly used tactics that are applied when one is on a particular mission. When one is now thinking about starting a project or playing with a new idea, usually this idea becomes heavily attacked with much ridicule and opposition. Mockery is the tool used to oppose and humiliation is the experience that one goes through in scaling the height of distraction and thick wall of resistance.
I remember the words taken from the book of Nehemiah Chapter four:
1 Now when Sanballat heard that we were building the wall, he was angry and greatly enraged, and he jeered at the Jews.
2 And he said in the presence of his brothers and of the army of Samaria, “What are these feeble Jews doing? Will they restore it for themselves? Will they sacrifice? Will they finish up in a day? Will they revive the stones out of the heaps of rubbish, and burned ones at that?”
3 Tobiah the Ammonite was beside him, and he said, “Yes, what they are building—if a fox goes up on it he will break down their stone wall!”
4 Hear, O our God, for we are despised. Turn back their taunt on their own heads and give them up to be plundered in a land where they are captives.
I continue to read from this Chapter.
6 So we rebuilt the wall till all of it reached half its height, for the people worked with all their heart.
7 But when Sanballat, Tobiah, the Arabs, the Ammonites and the people of Ashdod heard that the repairs to Jerusalem’s walls had gone ahead and that the gaps were being closed, they were very angry.
8 They all plotted together to come and fight against Jerusalem and stir up trouble against it.
9 But we prayed to our God and posted a guard day and night to meet this threat.
13 Therefore I stationed some of the people behind the lowest points of the wall at the exposed places, posting them by families, with their swords, spears and bows.
14 After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.”
These encouraging words also bring back to my memory the encouraging words spoken by Moses, while in the wilderness.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14: 14)
I now reflect on the fourth scene. This scene brings to character the element of being overlooked as an option. It may very well bring on the sense of jealousy; when no longer is one being considered by someone for something. Jealousy is a very real emotion. But the main point is that, it is an emotion. Jealously very much rests inside a much passionate heart. It is therefore important, to decipher the things that one keeps in his heart. It also goes back to the test of worth. Is it really worth it to keep holding on to an idea, that doesn’t really want to be held on to for any longer? Is it really worth it? I think for a moment...
Now, there is at least one condition in Scripture where I have cited jealousy being used an effective tool to serve God.
Interestingly, I read from the first book of Kings Chapter nineteen:
12 After the earthquake, a fire, but Yahweh was not in the fire. After the fire, the murmur of a gentle breeze.
13 When Elijah perceived it, he covered his face with his cloak, went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. The he heard a voice addressing him again. “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
14 He answered, “I am burning with jealous love for Yahweh, the God of hosts, because the Israelites have forsaken your covenant, thrown down the altars and slain your prophets with the sword. No one is left but myself, yet they still seek my life to take it away.
From the above verses, it can be witnessed that Elijah felt quite strongly about how God’s children abandoned the ways of the Father. He felt so much, that it took him to a much jealous place. He had great zeal for the love of God. And he expressed such! It is to say then, that jealously can be re-worked for God’s glory. For God Himself, is a very jealous God and to no other does He give His honour. Just as God is jealous for His ways, so too, does He expect His children to be equally zealous for His ways. Never does He want to see His children live in ways outside of His own way.
“If you love Me, keep My commandments. And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever-- (John 14: 15,16)
As I reflect on the above, I come to some conclusion. There is nothing else to hold on to for jealousy’s sake. For everything in the world, that is not standing in the Will of God is sure to fade. This is sure and true. It is for that one then, to not grow faint of heart when one eventually becomes overlooked at some point in his life. What matters more, however, is the lessons that one can take with him, wherever he is to go. All one truly has is his own life lessons to learn from and treasure. There is nothing created, nothing at all, that one can take with him on his life journey besides the love of Christ; besides the love that the Father has for His children. Nothing! All one has is the love of the Father.
I read from the first book of John Chapter two:
15 Do not love the world or what is in it. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in Him.
16 for everything in the world- the craving of flesh, the greed of eyes and people boasting of their superiority- all this belongs to the world, not to the Father.
17 The world passes away with all its craving but those who do the will of God remain forever.
And now, on to the final scene! A woman’s barrenness. Should she be ashamed? Hmm... I always found this to be thought-provoking. Woman! I always laugh at how the Father designed woman to be this fancy creature, full of extra accessories. Quite the fancy build! Anyway... I move on in much thought.
I can’t help myself. I must go on in my expression. I find woman to be a peculiar build. You see. When I think of the womb and I study her, when I study her ways and her antics, I cannot help but think that God designed the womb for Himself. This is what tickles my mind the most.
A woman has literally, I mean literally NO control over her womb. When the womb decides, she starts her menstruation. Then the womb decides when she wants to bleed, how long a season or how short a season.
A woman can never decide the contents that leave her womb or even the quantity of such.
She can’t decide how these come out; the speed and direction.
She can’t decide what hour the baby leaves her pregnant womb.
She cannot even decide which position to station her womb.
All these decisions are taken executively and are taken by the Lord Himself. What can she do?
A woman, simply has no control over this portion of her body. For her part, all she can do is simply witness life happening to her and through her as she grows through her womanly phases.
But the womb, this is definitely the Lord’s portion. A woman’s womb is her greatest mystery. Sigh! So, now I ask, should a woman be ashamed of her barrenness?
A woman may decide to feel how she wants, but objectively speaking, woman is only part of God’s plan. A woman’s purpose rests on her Maker’s plan for her life. No one else, but her Maker decides the story of her life. She herself, does not write her own story when it boils down to her fertility. This is God’s greatest gift to humanity and He decides who and where to lay down His seeds. This power ultimately rests in the Hands of God. I pause here.
Woman; a vessel specially crafted by the Lord. When the Lord thinks to birth a nation, He considers woman as part of His plan. But not just any woman. He searches the heart of that faithful woman.
A faithful woman is a well-prized woman.
Listen, daughter, and pay careful attention: Forget your people and your father’s house. Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord. The city of Tyre will come with a gift, people of wealth will seek your favor. All glorious is the princess within her chamber; her gown is interwoven with gold. In embroidered garments she is led to the king; her virgin companions follow her— those brought to be with her. Led in with joy and gladness, they enter the palace of the king. Your sons will take the place of your fathers; you will make them princes throughout the land. I will perpetuate your memory through all generations; therefore the nations will praise you for ever and ever. (Psalm 45: 10-17)
“Sing, barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband,” says the Lord. (Isaiah 54: 1)
So, I am not going to challenge this final test. Nope! Not me.
You see. The battle of fertility rests not with the enemy, it ultimately rests with the Lord Himself. It is the Lord who opens and closes wombs. It is the Lord who mysteriously brings one to meet his mate. It is the Lord who is the Guardian and Protector when it comes to fertility. After all, this is the gift of life and I respect much. And I also respect His timing. And I also respect His decisions.
It is simply then, to just trust even if one does not see in his lifetime, the things hoped for. It is believing even when nothing at all comes to fruition. The womb is the womb. But think of the womb of life. What if all that was hoped for actually amounts to nothing, would one still believe? I go back to the question of worth. For, there is something unique that stands out quite drastically when it comes to blind faith.
For sure, one may be blind. He does not see. But one feels! One feels that feeling of being upheld. One feels that feeling of being delivered from that wish or way of wishful thinking. One becomes renewed in mind to not even want in the first place. One starts to no longer care. For that one has received a love so pure that nothing else really matters, but to be under the influence of pure Love. That is, to be under the influence of the Father, indulging in all of His fruits.
The Father loans His child the fruit of peace, discipline, gentleness, patience and understanding to help him endure and reach his maturation point, in faith. The Father waits for the fullness of time as man’s faith matures to bear much fruit; fruit that will last. This is the case of walking with Blind Faith.
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