I write this piece with a much heavy heart.
Following this study journey, I now sit with myself and reflect. Sigh.
I feel compelled to share my life journey, albeit very blunt and to the point, contrastingly different to my previous entries.
Though very difficult, it is mine to embrace. Though very painful, I receive much pleasure in releasing my concluding thoughts, that which was revealed to me in faith.
I now draw up my list of Differential Diagnoses :-
1. I was (am?) indeed cursed through disobedience [=witchcraft (bloodline)]
2. Coming out from it, my life was completely humbled, as I constantly groped through life in complete darkness; a life filled with fear, shame and unending rejection. The pain too much to bear for one body. How much can a person take and for how long?
3. It is my job to change the course in history (whether I physically die or live; dry bones: spiritually dead)
4. It is by faith that I live
Side Note: -
So much is being revealed to me through time. It is unbelievable. What I just was not able to see for my lifetime, I am now finally able to see (= sorcery).
Through years of prayer and fasting, constantly crying out to my Father, ABBA in heaven, the scales from my eyes are successively beginning to shed as I move from revelation to revelation.
Prescription:-
I break all past, present and future curses (calling each one by name) sent to me and my life path, along with other members with me, I break all attacks and covenants made without my knowledge or consent in the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ as I be washed in the Blood of Jesus Christ, my Lord, God and Saviour. And I praise your Holy Name, Father. Father, Christ Jesus, You are Lord and King over each and every single area in my life. My body belongs to You and to no other. You are my Blood Life.
I also forgive the persons whose hands work against the plans of my Father and his will for my life. Though God cannot be deceived. One reaps what he sows. I pray for the rest (=peace) of the souls whose heart lie to sow seeds of destruction and destitution. I really do pray that they receive peace of mind and be filled with true joy.
I also am soooooo very grateful for ALL of the prayers that were sent up to heaven, all those who called my name forward to the Throne of Grace. They have been my angels and guides throughout this tough ordeal. I had not a clue how many attacks were sent my way. Not one clue. I am really grateful for all who unceasingly prayed for me and my life. There was always an angel to support me each step of the way. I will be forever grateful. I really did not understand these things growing up in childhood.
I trust in You, my Lord. I trust in your unfailng love. Father, I adore You. You have not only taken me in as your daughter, or even friend. You have been pruning me, shaping me, moulding me into a beautiful woman to have as part of your bride. You have invited me to meet with the much deeper parts of You, as You share Wisdom with me. You hold my hand. For this, I will be forever grateful. For You, my Lord, I go ALL IN.
There is a future for the man of peace.
I say no more.
Following this study journey, I now sit with myself and reflect. Sigh.
I feel compelled to share my life journey, albeit very blunt and to the point, contrastingly different to my previous entries.
Though very difficult, it is mine to embrace. Though very painful, I receive much pleasure in releasing my concluding thoughts, that which was revealed to me in faith.
I now draw up my list of Differential Diagnoses :-
1. I was (am?) indeed cursed through disobedience [=witchcraft (bloodline)]
2. Coming out from it, my life was completely humbled, as I constantly groped through life in complete darkness; a life filled with fear, shame and unending rejection. The pain too much to bear for one body. How much can a person take and for how long?
3. It is my job to change the course in history (whether I physically die or live; dry bones: spiritually dead)
4. It is by faith that I live
Side Note: -
So much is being revealed to me through time. It is unbelievable. What I just was not able to see for my lifetime, I am now finally able to see (= sorcery).
Through years of prayer and fasting, constantly crying out to my Father, ABBA in heaven, the scales from my eyes are successively beginning to shed as I move from revelation to revelation.
Prescription:-
I break all past, present and future curses (calling each one by name) sent to me and my life path, along with other members with me, I break all attacks and covenants made without my knowledge or consent in the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ as I be washed in the Blood of Jesus Christ, my Lord, God and Saviour. And I praise your Holy Name, Father. Father, Christ Jesus, You are Lord and King over each and every single area in my life. My body belongs to You and to no other. You are my Blood Life.
I also forgive the persons whose hands work against the plans of my Father and his will for my life. Though God cannot be deceived. One reaps what he sows. I pray for the rest (=peace) of the souls whose heart lie to sow seeds of destruction and destitution. I really do pray that they receive peace of mind and be filled with true joy.
I also am soooooo very grateful for ALL of the prayers that were sent up to heaven, all those who called my name forward to the Throne of Grace. They have been my angels and guides throughout this tough ordeal. I had not a clue how many attacks were sent my way. Not one clue. I am really grateful for all who unceasingly prayed for me and my life. There was always an angel to support me each step of the way. I will be forever grateful. I really did not understand these things growing up in childhood.
I trust in You, my Lord. I trust in your unfailng love. Father, I adore You. You have not only taken me in as your daughter, or even friend. You have been pruning me, shaping me, moulding me into a beautiful woman to have as part of your bride. You have invited me to meet with the much deeper parts of You, as You share Wisdom with me. You hold my hand. For this, I will be forever grateful. For You, my Lord, I go ALL IN.
There is a future for the man of peace.
I say no more.
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