I now sit within the confines of myself, reflecting a great deal on my life path; the places that I have already trekked in this life. And I sit still.
I can ask myself: where did the time go?
But then I would only be wasting much more of such a precious resource.
One thing that I do know is that I live a different life. Though I would strongly argue that some have already traced the steps that I have walked in this life. I am not alone.
Yet still, I tell my story.
From the outlook, it may seem as though I have none to tell. There is nothing great in what I do. I usually hide myself away. For the most part, I speak very little. And with little social meetings, there is very little to relate. I live on the fringe.
In place of speech, I do find my identity in quietly observing life. I am the student. It doesn’t matter whether I get placed inside a classroom or I am in the most rural outdoors, I will always be a student at heart. This is what I mostly identify with. I love studying people, either singly or in groups. I enjoy studying group dynamics. I study the ways people move, how their body talks without saying a word. I study expressions. This fascinates me the most. Though I am not in the scene of life, I enjoy being on the scene, watching the moving images of persons as they continue on in their daily lives. I watch from the shadows of this life. I pick up patterns and this leaves me in wonderment.
I no longer see my life as if in continuum. The gaps and spaces in my life render me invisible, totally escaping the predictable structures and matrices mostly set up by the global sphere.
But what exactly has this done?
I now come to realize that my mind has finally shifted.
Most think to rely on humanly built systems and structures to rely on solutions for daily living, that is, to rely on what one is able to see. Most hardly ever recognize the existence of any alternative support. Most are too busily caught up by the affairs of life to realize this simple truth.
From the day man steps into the earth, he has already brought with him his wealth of solutions. Just as milk is naturally produced and packaged when a child is born into the world, man has already brought with him sound substance for him to indulge in as he receives great packets of nutrients that help him grow and build his immunity. Life has already given him this much.
Nature takes care of its own. This is the simple truth.
Though, it goes much deeper than using the word nature. For there is the Creator, my God and Father.
For many days, more so, for many years, I always felt out of place and unwelcomed through social spaces and times. I thought to make myself invisible in this visible world.
But one thing that undeniably stood out that I have once experienced in my lifetime was the great love that I have received. An indescribable love. A very tender love I have experienced. And since experiencing, everything in my life changed.
Though I struggled a great deal with life’s many uncertainties for an absolutely long time, this love kept finding its way back into my heart to uphold and support me. I felt drawn to further explore its Source. I wanted to know more.
To explore more of my Father meant that I had to start trusting in all that I just was not able to see.
From my personal learnings, to see and experience the Father means to enter into a new way of thinking.
So, what has this exercise of exploration done for me exactly? Well, I am able to express now. It doesn’t matter whether someone hears me or they don’t. It doesn’t matter even, whether I may be right or may be wrong. What matters most to me is that I do express. To be able to find and hear my own voice in the midst of many other voices. To not feel guilty about expressing my own thoughts and ways, even if they deviate completely from the norm. Even if I have no one else to share this with, I still take great joy in my own silent expressions. This is my definition of freedom.
My Father teaches me a lot and I am willing to listen. I like my Father. He definitely has a different personality to my own person. When I think about Him, I feel secure, as I become enveloped in such warm feelings. He has a pretty strong personality and He is highly intelligent. I usually feel drawn to Him. He is palpable to me as any other person. I can sense Him and think about Him lots. I have found a great relationship with my Father. In this, I have my freedom.
When I merge my two worlds, the one in which my Father shares with me, with the one where I can express, it is from this place of cross-section, I experience my greatest joy. It is from this place, I experience bountiful love.
Though time has come and went, and though I have not lived the much traditional way of living, somewhere in the shadows of this life, I have found my greatest love of all; the very tender and caring love shared by my Heavenly Father, ABBA.
I feel so strongly about this type of love!
And this is one secret that I have learnt:
The more dependent one becomes on God, the more God Himself is able to show up and show out for the one who trusts in Him.
This is THE lesson that I have learnt.
The ways of the world teach man to be completely independent and reliant on himself. Though, I do argue that man reflexively becomes a slave to the very system that sold him such freedom.
I mean to say that man can never be “independent” while relying or depending on a system to become “independent”. It makes no sense to me. Man’s independence is still dependent on the system on which he relies. And how long can any economic system hold itself up for? Well, for as long as the system serves to satisfy itself. The system is self-serving. It does not serve man.
In any case, all the resources sought after, all the raw materials are made by the Creator Himself. He can build and destroy as He pleases, wherever and however He so chooses to do this. All the world is His.
The ways of God teach man to be COMPLETELY dependent and reliant on God Himself. This is complete freedom, a freedom that was once lost from since the beginnings of time when man fell from grace.
I can ask myself: where did the time go?
But then I would only be wasting much more of such a precious resource.
One thing that I do know is that I live a different life. Though I would strongly argue that some have already traced the steps that I have walked in this life. I am not alone.
Yet still, I tell my story.
From the outlook, it may seem as though I have none to tell. There is nothing great in what I do. I usually hide myself away. For the most part, I speak very little. And with little social meetings, there is very little to relate. I live on the fringe.
In place of speech, I do find my identity in quietly observing life. I am the student. It doesn’t matter whether I get placed inside a classroom or I am in the most rural outdoors, I will always be a student at heart. This is what I mostly identify with. I love studying people, either singly or in groups. I enjoy studying group dynamics. I study the ways people move, how their body talks without saying a word. I study expressions. This fascinates me the most. Though I am not in the scene of life, I enjoy being on the scene, watching the moving images of persons as they continue on in their daily lives. I watch from the shadows of this life. I pick up patterns and this leaves me in wonderment.
I no longer see my life as if in continuum. The gaps and spaces in my life render me invisible, totally escaping the predictable structures and matrices mostly set up by the global sphere.
But what exactly has this done?
I now come to realize that my mind has finally shifted.
Most think to rely on humanly built systems and structures to rely on solutions for daily living, that is, to rely on what one is able to see. Most hardly ever recognize the existence of any alternative support. Most are too busily caught up by the affairs of life to realize this simple truth.
From the day man steps into the earth, he has already brought with him his wealth of solutions. Just as milk is naturally produced and packaged when a child is born into the world, man has already brought with him sound substance for him to indulge in as he receives great packets of nutrients that help him grow and build his immunity. Life has already given him this much.
Nature takes care of its own. This is the simple truth.
Though, it goes much deeper than using the word nature. For there is the Creator, my God and Father.
For many days, more so, for many years, I always felt out of place and unwelcomed through social spaces and times. I thought to make myself invisible in this visible world.
But one thing that undeniably stood out that I have once experienced in my lifetime was the great love that I have received. An indescribable love. A very tender love I have experienced. And since experiencing, everything in my life changed.
Though I struggled a great deal with life’s many uncertainties for an absolutely long time, this love kept finding its way back into my heart to uphold and support me. I felt drawn to further explore its Source. I wanted to know more.
To explore more of my Father meant that I had to start trusting in all that I just was not able to see.
From my personal learnings, to see and experience the Father means to enter into a new way of thinking.
So, what has this exercise of exploration done for me exactly? Well, I am able to express now. It doesn’t matter whether someone hears me or they don’t. It doesn’t matter even, whether I may be right or may be wrong. What matters most to me is that I do express. To be able to find and hear my own voice in the midst of many other voices. To not feel guilty about expressing my own thoughts and ways, even if they deviate completely from the norm. Even if I have no one else to share this with, I still take great joy in my own silent expressions. This is my definition of freedom.
My Father teaches me a lot and I am willing to listen. I like my Father. He definitely has a different personality to my own person. When I think about Him, I feel secure, as I become enveloped in such warm feelings. He has a pretty strong personality and He is highly intelligent. I usually feel drawn to Him. He is palpable to me as any other person. I can sense Him and think about Him lots. I have found a great relationship with my Father. In this, I have my freedom.
When I merge my two worlds, the one in which my Father shares with me, with the one where I can express, it is from this place of cross-section, I experience my greatest joy. It is from this place, I experience bountiful love.
Though time has come and went, and though I have not lived the much traditional way of living, somewhere in the shadows of this life, I have found my greatest love of all; the very tender and caring love shared by my Heavenly Father, ABBA.
I feel so strongly about this type of love!
And this is one secret that I have learnt:
The more dependent one becomes on God, the more God Himself is able to show up and show out for the one who trusts in Him.
This is THE lesson that I have learnt.
The ways of the world teach man to be completely independent and reliant on himself. Though, I do argue that man reflexively becomes a slave to the very system that sold him such freedom.
I mean to say that man can never be “independent” while relying or depending on a system to become “independent”. It makes no sense to me. Man’s independence is still dependent on the system on which he relies. And how long can any economic system hold itself up for? Well, for as long as the system serves to satisfy itself. The system is self-serving. It does not serve man.
In any case, all the resources sought after, all the raw materials are made by the Creator Himself. He can build and destroy as He pleases, wherever and however He so chooses to do this. All the world is His.
The ways of God teach man to be COMPLETELY dependent and reliant on God Himself. This is complete freedom, a freedom that was once lost from since the beginnings of time when man fell from grace.
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