They say everything is about timing. In this, I do believe. So many times, and in so many ways, I have come to understand this one truth. For an absolutely long time, I felt as though my life was really over.
The thing that bothered me the most was the seemingly perpetual nature of the leaf being blown to the whims and fancy of the winds, not ever truly settling. I was plagued with never knowing the ending. I was plagued with never knowing my ending. I was always in constant motion, never truly understanding the real rhythm of my life.
Most people usually have a story to tell. It most times circulates around a main plot, and certain variables change along the way as time moves on. I felt very much, the internal and external struggles, such that those very struggles became the story of my life. I thought to myself, there will be no happy ending, at least not in this lifetime.
Now, from my vantage point, as I assume my spiritual self, I can now see, that life truly never ends. Life never really ends.
What I do know now, is that there were so many life lessons to be learnt. Pain, most times, is the impetus and the beginning of learning life. It forces one to truly look at oneself, reflect for a bit, and then later understand.
I treasure silent moments. This, I understand about myself.
I could see that one phase of my life ended a really long time ago. I was then left with very little identity in the material world. Though, I did explore much into the world, to see life from various angles; to witness life, through the eyes of many others. Life is such the beauty and a puzzle. The brave heart chooses to explore what it least understands.
The good news, however, is that with every ending, there must be some new beginning. There is no end to Life. Life takes us out of one chapter to carry us into some new adventure. Does one dare to explore?
The best life lived is the one inspired. Very little did I know that I was indeed living a much inspired life. I now understand, that the little steps that I did take carried me to where I am today. Will I ever speak? I do not have the answer. I am no talker. But, there is always room for much growth and exploration.
Now, that I close the final chapter on this journey of mine, I am grateful. I am grateful for that opportunity I received to take a closer look into my life, from that historical perspective, blending it with the Word, and allowing certain truths to marinate within me.
Truthfully, I was really shock by my findings and that which was revealed to me. This experience has awakened, very much, my learnings in the spirit realm. It leaves me in awe. Everything first happens in the spirit. This is sure and true. It is important then, to assume the true self, putting on the spiritual garments, walking in Christ Jesus, to even begin to understand why one does what he does; to truly understand habits and learning how to change those habits.
I thought that my position in my beliefs would have drastically changed as I wrote along the way. Instead, I was completely taken away by how much was going on around me while I was writing. I was moved by God’s Spirit. The Word is such a dynamic experience and He bases His teachings on real life experiences, that is, as they are happening. My Father usually teaches live and direct. For He is Life for man.
Life is also both iterative and successive. It does mean, then, that the previous steps become almost as the blueprint and foreshadow of the steps to be taken into the future. It takes much observation, then, to witness one’s life through those previously made successive steps. Then one can finally see where he is going. My Father leaves nothing up to chance. Just follow your life’s pattern, then you can see where you are going, even if you find yourself in a completely different location or circumstance. With my Father, nothing is left to chance.
Now, I write for myself, a song of new beginnings. I breathe a sigh of relief, at least for this one moment in time. I take some time to appreciate how far a journey I have been trekking. I hold my mind towards a much brighter future. Though, the future is never really mine for the take. I no longer walk by myself. I am no loner. For I walk with myself, in myself, to myself, if one understands. I walk with me wherever I go. I no longer fear the shadows of my life. For they have all taught me wonderful lessons about courage.
My journey started off with fear. This was my beginning. But this is certainly not my ending. For it is a journey, and I am learning and growing to be more fearless every day. Fear gives me the opportunity to become more fearless every day. This is the gift that my Father has given to me.
Now, I know, for sure, that Christ lives in me. Now, I know for sure, that my Father resides in my heart. He has always been there, leading me along the way. I have seen great miracles throughout my life, really wonderful surprises in my life. But there was never really anyone who can I tell. I mean, who would really believe? I believe in my Father and I believe that He truly speaks to me from that eternal place in my heart. I learn to trust in Him more and more each day. I cast all my fears on Him, as He leads me along my path.
I fear not, then, on my life; of the path that was created for me to walk. Now, I just simply follow His instructions as He leads the way.
The thing that bothered me the most was the seemingly perpetual nature of the leaf being blown to the whims and fancy of the winds, not ever truly settling. I was plagued with never knowing the ending. I was plagued with never knowing my ending. I was always in constant motion, never truly understanding the real rhythm of my life.
Most people usually have a story to tell. It most times circulates around a main plot, and certain variables change along the way as time moves on. I felt very much, the internal and external struggles, such that those very struggles became the story of my life. I thought to myself, there will be no happy ending, at least not in this lifetime.
Now, from my vantage point, as I assume my spiritual self, I can now see, that life truly never ends. Life never really ends.
What I do know now, is that there were so many life lessons to be learnt. Pain, most times, is the impetus and the beginning of learning life. It forces one to truly look at oneself, reflect for a bit, and then later understand.
I treasure silent moments. This, I understand about myself.
I could see that one phase of my life ended a really long time ago. I was then left with very little identity in the material world. Though, I did explore much into the world, to see life from various angles; to witness life, through the eyes of many others. Life is such the beauty and a puzzle. The brave heart chooses to explore what it least understands.
The good news, however, is that with every ending, there must be some new beginning. There is no end to Life. Life takes us out of one chapter to carry us into some new adventure. Does one dare to explore?
The best life lived is the one inspired. Very little did I know that I was indeed living a much inspired life. I now understand, that the little steps that I did take carried me to where I am today. Will I ever speak? I do not have the answer. I am no talker. But, there is always room for much growth and exploration.
Now, that I close the final chapter on this journey of mine, I am grateful. I am grateful for that opportunity I received to take a closer look into my life, from that historical perspective, blending it with the Word, and allowing certain truths to marinate within me.
Truthfully, I was really shock by my findings and that which was revealed to me. This experience has awakened, very much, my learnings in the spirit realm. It leaves me in awe. Everything first happens in the spirit. This is sure and true. It is important then, to assume the true self, putting on the spiritual garments, walking in Christ Jesus, to even begin to understand why one does what he does; to truly understand habits and learning how to change those habits.
I thought that my position in my beliefs would have drastically changed as I wrote along the way. Instead, I was completely taken away by how much was going on around me while I was writing. I was moved by God’s Spirit. The Word is such a dynamic experience and He bases His teachings on real life experiences, that is, as they are happening. My Father usually teaches live and direct. For He is Life for man.
Life is also both iterative and successive. It does mean, then, that the previous steps become almost as the blueprint and foreshadow of the steps to be taken into the future. It takes much observation, then, to witness one’s life through those previously made successive steps. Then one can finally see where he is going. My Father leaves nothing up to chance. Just follow your life’s pattern, then you can see where you are going, even if you find yourself in a completely different location or circumstance. With my Father, nothing is left to chance.
Now, I write for myself, a song of new beginnings. I breathe a sigh of relief, at least for this one moment in time. I take some time to appreciate how far a journey I have been trekking. I hold my mind towards a much brighter future. Though, the future is never really mine for the take. I no longer walk by myself. I am no loner. For I walk with myself, in myself, to myself, if one understands. I walk with me wherever I go. I no longer fear the shadows of my life. For they have all taught me wonderful lessons about courage.
My journey started off with fear. This was my beginning. But this is certainly not my ending. For it is a journey, and I am learning and growing to be more fearless every day. Fear gives me the opportunity to become more fearless every day. This is the gift that my Father has given to me.
Now, I know, for sure, that Christ lives in me. Now, I know for sure, that my Father resides in my heart. He has always been there, leading me along the way. I have seen great miracles throughout my life, really wonderful surprises in my life. But there was never really anyone who can I tell. I mean, who would really believe? I believe in my Father and I believe that He truly speaks to me from that eternal place in my heart. I learn to trust in Him more and more each day. I cast all my fears on Him, as He leads me along my path.
I fear not, then, on my life; of the path that was created for me to walk. Now, I just simply follow His instructions as He leads the way.
My Home
I am at home.
In my home, I am welcomed and feel at peace.
There is great serenity in my abiding place.
I feel a great sense of warmth and love.
I am calm and am relaxed in my abiding place.
In my home, I have this desire to serve.
I wait on the fullness of time until it is my time to serve.
In my service, I find great peace.
I am at peace in what I have been called to do.
I enjoy every minute of my life.
I enjoy what I have been called to do.
I do as I have been instructed.
I thank my Father for He has placed me where I belong.
In my line of duty, I am free.
For, I do what I have always been called to do.
I receive love as I grow more towards love.
I embrace kindness, which warms my heart.
I develop beautiful relationships, budding friendships, and loyal partners.
I treasure the bonds that I develop.
My home is Rich. In my abiding place, there is great treasure.
There is lightness in the air. Great joy and fullness pervade my abiding place.
I am happy to be home.
My home is filled with many beautiful spaces, where I feel most alive.
I respect the elements that help make this abiding place what it is.
I am free to express my love and gratitude.
In my home, I am welcomed and feel at peace.
There is great serenity in my abiding place.
I feel a great sense of warmth and love.
I am calm and am relaxed in my abiding place.
In my home, I have this desire to serve.
I wait on the fullness of time until it is my time to serve.
In my service, I find great peace.
I am at peace in what I have been called to do.
I enjoy every minute of my life.
I enjoy what I have been called to do.
I do as I have been instructed.
I thank my Father for He has placed me where I belong.
In my line of duty, I am free.
For, I do what I have always been called to do.
I receive love as I grow more towards love.
I embrace kindness, which warms my heart.
I develop beautiful relationships, budding friendships, and loyal partners.
I treasure the bonds that I develop.
My home is Rich. In my abiding place, there is great treasure.
There is lightness in the air. Great joy and fullness pervade my abiding place.
I am happy to be home.
My home is filled with many beautiful spaces, where I feel most alive.
I respect the elements that help make this abiding place what it is.
I am free to express my love and gratitude.
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