Now that I have retraced the older parts of me, genuinely curious to determine who I was, it now interests me to determine my next steps, though the future is never really mine for the take. There is so much internal work that still needs to be done. This I can see. But I will always treasure the lessons learnt along each step of my learning journey.
It is time, then, to start putting away parts of me. For these parts served their time and now I have been instructed to start moving on. I move on. I leave behind the seventeen- year old little school girl version of myself. She no longer exists. I also learn to start embracing the less understood parts in myself. I lay to rest the scientific thinking mind for the moment. This also, has served me, but only up to a point.
Now, I learn to start operating with the mind of automaticity; the plane of the mind where God’s Spirit takes over and where all Wisdom gains full control. It is from this sweet spot, where everything else flows. It is from this eternal place, where the mind is in full operation by the Spirit, and where great streams and rivers flow.
I worry not. I worry not of the things that I have little to no control over. I lend my mind over to the Spirit, and let my Father have His complete and perfect will be done in me, on earth as it is in Heaven.
When the Spirit takes over, this is when all the magic begins to flow, as Wisdom begins her work of Art.
Wisdom: She is the painter who works her Art; the Art of Life. I am only a tiny piece to her Masterpiece as She paints Her portrait. She is Wisdom.
I am but only a stream that flows from Her Source.
Most times, one thinks to himself that he is not able to do. But it is the inexperienced student that speaks these very words.
The student that has properly learnt, knows and believes in the grace that is given to ALL works of Life. For that which is worked by and through the Spirit is everlasting; there is no end. Wisdom works to the ends of all eternity. It is through Wisdom, everything else came to be.
It is for that student, then, to remember that she is only the vessel. She leans in and works mighty works with God’s Spirit, companion and friend; advocate and ever-present help in affliction, to have her works, all of her works truly accomplished.
This is the gift that the Father has left with all his children, that they may do greater works than even Christ Himself, for all work is done, not only in the day, but also in the Spirit of Life. All works are done through Wisdom.
To operate in Spirit is to allow fluidity, putting aside the emotion of fear. To walk in the Spirit is to stand bravely even when the tides are beating upon the rock. The Rock withstands the many waves of resistance, beating upon its neck; a heavy yoke to bear. For this Rock knows everything has a time and a place and a reason for existing. It is Wisdom who knows and understands this much.
I learn to start letting go of the much younger parts of myself. I work towards shedding the fearful parts of her in order to embrace the woman parts in me and complete my self-portrait. My younger self is so strong-willed and determined. She doesn’t want to let go. But she must go. This is the ego part of me; listening to the flesh that speaks. It is this part that I work through to shed from the self.
I leave behind my past, so that I can embrace the true me. I am woman. I am a beautiful woman and I love her. I love the wisdom that she brings. She is a very strong woman. Very powerful. Her silent ways carry with her, a great mystery.
I no longer long to hold on to what defined me in my past; this shy little girl who spoke few words. I am no coward. I grow towards being more fearless each day.
It is my Father who has watched me grow and taught me to be the woman that He created me to be. I wear the shield of His Word as my protection. I am covered by the shade of God, Almighty, who is my Father. I feel my Father’s love and I am not ashamed to express what I feel. I am not afraid to cling to His ways. I am not afraid to express my love for my Father and how I truly feel. He is with me wherever I go. I am led in Spirit, by my Father. I am nurtured by His Spirit.
I leave my past, letting the ashes fall as they may.
I nurture the mind, now, to think and meditate on new beginnings. I meditate on my new life.
I, for my part, went forth like a brook from a river, a stream diverted into a delightful garden. I thought, "Let me irrigate my orchard and water my flowers." But now my brook has grown into a river and the river, into a sea. May my teaching shine forth like the dawn; may I carry its light to faraway places. I will spread my teaching like a prophecy and leave it to future generations. See, all of you, that I have not worked for myself alone but for all those who seek wisdom.(Sirach 24: 30-34)
It is time, then, to start putting away parts of me. For these parts served their time and now I have been instructed to start moving on. I move on. I leave behind the seventeen- year old little school girl version of myself. She no longer exists. I also learn to start embracing the less understood parts in myself. I lay to rest the scientific thinking mind for the moment. This also, has served me, but only up to a point.
Now, I learn to start operating with the mind of automaticity; the plane of the mind where God’s Spirit takes over and where all Wisdom gains full control. It is from this sweet spot, where everything else flows. It is from this eternal place, where the mind is in full operation by the Spirit, and where great streams and rivers flow.
I worry not. I worry not of the things that I have little to no control over. I lend my mind over to the Spirit, and let my Father have His complete and perfect will be done in me, on earth as it is in Heaven.
When the Spirit takes over, this is when all the magic begins to flow, as Wisdom begins her work of Art.
Wisdom: She is the painter who works her Art; the Art of Life. I am only a tiny piece to her Masterpiece as She paints Her portrait. She is Wisdom.
I am but only a stream that flows from Her Source.
Most times, one thinks to himself that he is not able to do. But it is the inexperienced student that speaks these very words.
The student that has properly learnt, knows and believes in the grace that is given to ALL works of Life. For that which is worked by and through the Spirit is everlasting; there is no end. Wisdom works to the ends of all eternity. It is through Wisdom, everything else came to be.
It is for that student, then, to remember that she is only the vessel. She leans in and works mighty works with God’s Spirit, companion and friend; advocate and ever-present help in affliction, to have her works, all of her works truly accomplished.
This is the gift that the Father has left with all his children, that they may do greater works than even Christ Himself, for all work is done, not only in the day, but also in the Spirit of Life. All works are done through Wisdom.
To operate in Spirit is to allow fluidity, putting aside the emotion of fear. To walk in the Spirit is to stand bravely even when the tides are beating upon the rock. The Rock withstands the many waves of resistance, beating upon its neck; a heavy yoke to bear. For this Rock knows everything has a time and a place and a reason for existing. It is Wisdom who knows and understands this much.
I learn to start letting go of the much younger parts of myself. I work towards shedding the fearful parts of her in order to embrace the woman parts in me and complete my self-portrait. My younger self is so strong-willed and determined. She doesn’t want to let go. But she must go. This is the ego part of me; listening to the flesh that speaks. It is this part that I work through to shed from the self.
I leave behind my past, so that I can embrace the true me. I am woman. I am a beautiful woman and I love her. I love the wisdom that she brings. She is a very strong woman. Very powerful. Her silent ways carry with her, a great mystery.
I no longer long to hold on to what defined me in my past; this shy little girl who spoke few words. I am no coward. I grow towards being more fearless each day.
It is my Father who has watched me grow and taught me to be the woman that He created me to be. I wear the shield of His Word as my protection. I am covered by the shade of God, Almighty, who is my Father. I feel my Father’s love and I am not ashamed to express what I feel. I am not afraid to cling to His ways. I am not afraid to express my love for my Father and how I truly feel. He is with me wherever I go. I am led in Spirit, by my Father. I am nurtured by His Spirit.
I leave my past, letting the ashes fall as they may.
I nurture the mind, now, to think and meditate on new beginnings. I meditate on my new life.
I, for my part, went forth like a brook from a river, a stream diverted into a delightful garden. I thought, "Let me irrigate my orchard and water my flowers." But now my brook has grown into a river and the river, into a sea. May my teaching shine forth like the dawn; may I carry its light to faraway places. I will spread my teaching like a prophecy and leave it to future generations. See, all of you, that I have not worked for myself alone but for all those who seek wisdom.(Sirach 24: 30-34)
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