I sit here on this rocky patch of land, my feet immersed in the crystal clear of the waters that run by. The sun now giving the final ends of its rays. I see the remnants of day now slowly starting to slip away. The air has gotten so much cooler now, a slow breeze against my cheek and the night light is only now beginning to show. Isn’t this how life goes?
I sit with myself in the quiet quarters. I begin to finally feel the warmth reach into me as I receive much understanding. I am but only a tiny speck of dust, just milling around restlessly upon the land. I move about in great search, only to realize that I already had what I was looking for all my life.
It is almost night time. I can see the lights now fading. The dark spells of life begin to overshadow.
Everyone, I mean every single one who has at least walked upon this great earth, must pass through the dark, before one can see that great light.
One first thought he was in the light. It was only until darkness had its way, that much have been brought to this one’s attention. No one talks about darkness. No one talks about how dead something can be, though the sun gives its light. It is not the physical light that I speak of, but it is the dark shadow of one’s soul. It is this shadow that follows one wherever he goes. ‘There is no end in sight,’ he must think to himself. ‘How long again? How much longer? How long does it take to keep holding on and holding out?’
I sat with myself on many occasions to process the various emotions that flow through. It is the emotions that add the textures and flavours to experience life. It is not that the tree exists, it is how brightly green and vibrant it appears to be when a light is shone on it. This is what makes beauty. We all need light in order to live. Some know this. Others still are yet to know this truth. Nothing exists by itself. Everything is needed for everything else to exist.
I can think for the moment that my life has already gone to waste. After all, it is at this thinking point when my faith journey truly started. The general consensus teaches you one thing. In secret, though, I fought, I really fought those dark shadows that kept pushing my head down from seeing any light.
Then one day it hit me.
Why would one or many ones keep trying to hide what was and what will always be? Why cover it? It must mean that there is something to cover in the first place. Why am I searching for the light of day in my much external world, when all the light I would truly see would be found by first looking within.
My Father has been my shining light. He has been guiding me as I walked and as I keep walking through the night of life. For me, there is no other light. It really does not matter which way I go, it is night until my Father comes to shine His great Light.
We are all walking in the dark, each trying to find one’s way. Sometimes, life can be such the maze. Sometimes the greatest progress happens, when one becomes still in his mind. He stops looking and searching to relieve him of the aches and the pains. Sometimes, it is to be still to receive the healing and bring back points of restoration. To restore life. To be restored in life. To breathe.
As I sit by the water’s edge, I have come back to myself. To appreciate all stages to myself and respect the timing of my life.
I cannot be like any other. I can only be myself.
I am happy to have at least experienced a father’s tender love at one point in this lifetime. To witness the works of my Father in my life. He has already given me so much. He teaches me to love in turn and to care. He shows me mercy.
If, by chance, I had not seen the dark, never would I truly appreciate the Light that He has to share. This is how intimately attached I feel towards my Father. He has always been on my mind, ever since I felt the power of His Love.
With His Love comes great responsibility. For as I learn to love, I also learn the aches and pains that come with love. Love sustains one through the aches and pains. Love means learning to let go. Love means giving up of the self. Love means waiting. Love means allowing another space. Love also means to discipline the self.
It is in this love that I have truly found my faith. Faith is a practise. Faith must be practised. It doesn’t matter how far along or how short a distance the track I have to run. What matters more is that I keep utilizing my faith every second and every minute of the day. I keep working towards changing myself in faith. Growing to accept changes happening both to me and around me. Not always feeling as though one needs to be in control. Letting go is a huge part of practising faith.
Allowing the tides to flow through is also a huge path of growth. I have fell short on so many instances. But with the little that I do have, I learn now, to just trust and let go.
Everyday, I work more towards smiling. When I wake up, I thank my Father for waking me up and for healing me through the course of the night. I spend time with His Spirit. He has given me so much more reasons to live in the first place. I get to see Him.
I thank my Father, for He has stripped me so much and thought it much to mend and mold me.
I have always been on my spiritual walk, but it is only now that I realize that He was always calling me to meet with Him in the much deeper parts. He is calling me out on faith. He thinks much of me to call me out and reach Him in the much deeper parts of life. He meets with me in secret. I get to enter into His secret places, where He reveals so much. He allowed me this much access.
To love is be the servant. To even begin to think like Him, means to give of oneself wholly and purely out of love. There is none higher. He gives of Himself because He loves. He gives Himself because He loves.
When He thought to make the earth, He considered man. He considered much to make the earth the paradise He wanted to give man as a gift. So that man can live and taste and experience His great love that He had for his own creation. He wanted man to experience His great love that He had to give.
He created His portion to be holy as He is holy. His portion; the vine and life of the earth.
It is my lesson, then, that pain and suffering are great lessons and blessings for it forces one to go much deeper than what meets the general eye, to search the heart and soul, to meet with our Father in the deeper ends of life.
I sit with myself in the quiet quarters. I begin to finally feel the warmth reach into me as I receive much understanding. I am but only a tiny speck of dust, just milling around restlessly upon the land. I move about in great search, only to realize that I already had what I was looking for all my life.
It is almost night time. I can see the lights now fading. The dark spells of life begin to overshadow.
Everyone, I mean every single one who has at least walked upon this great earth, must pass through the dark, before one can see that great light.
One first thought he was in the light. It was only until darkness had its way, that much have been brought to this one’s attention. No one talks about darkness. No one talks about how dead something can be, though the sun gives its light. It is not the physical light that I speak of, but it is the dark shadow of one’s soul. It is this shadow that follows one wherever he goes. ‘There is no end in sight,’ he must think to himself. ‘How long again? How much longer? How long does it take to keep holding on and holding out?’
I sat with myself on many occasions to process the various emotions that flow through. It is the emotions that add the textures and flavours to experience life. It is not that the tree exists, it is how brightly green and vibrant it appears to be when a light is shone on it. This is what makes beauty. We all need light in order to live. Some know this. Others still are yet to know this truth. Nothing exists by itself. Everything is needed for everything else to exist.
I can think for the moment that my life has already gone to waste. After all, it is at this thinking point when my faith journey truly started. The general consensus teaches you one thing. In secret, though, I fought, I really fought those dark shadows that kept pushing my head down from seeing any light.
Then one day it hit me.
Why would one or many ones keep trying to hide what was and what will always be? Why cover it? It must mean that there is something to cover in the first place. Why am I searching for the light of day in my much external world, when all the light I would truly see would be found by first looking within.
My Father has been my shining light. He has been guiding me as I walked and as I keep walking through the night of life. For me, there is no other light. It really does not matter which way I go, it is night until my Father comes to shine His great Light.
We are all walking in the dark, each trying to find one’s way. Sometimes, life can be such the maze. Sometimes the greatest progress happens, when one becomes still in his mind. He stops looking and searching to relieve him of the aches and the pains. Sometimes, it is to be still to receive the healing and bring back points of restoration. To restore life. To be restored in life. To breathe.
As I sit by the water’s edge, I have come back to myself. To appreciate all stages to myself and respect the timing of my life.
I cannot be like any other. I can only be myself.
I am happy to have at least experienced a father’s tender love at one point in this lifetime. To witness the works of my Father in my life. He has already given me so much. He teaches me to love in turn and to care. He shows me mercy.
If, by chance, I had not seen the dark, never would I truly appreciate the Light that He has to share. This is how intimately attached I feel towards my Father. He has always been on my mind, ever since I felt the power of His Love.
With His Love comes great responsibility. For as I learn to love, I also learn the aches and pains that come with love. Love sustains one through the aches and pains. Love means learning to let go. Love means giving up of the self. Love means waiting. Love means allowing another space. Love also means to discipline the self.
It is in this love that I have truly found my faith. Faith is a practise. Faith must be practised. It doesn’t matter how far along or how short a distance the track I have to run. What matters more is that I keep utilizing my faith every second and every minute of the day. I keep working towards changing myself in faith. Growing to accept changes happening both to me and around me. Not always feeling as though one needs to be in control. Letting go is a huge part of practising faith.
Allowing the tides to flow through is also a huge path of growth. I have fell short on so many instances. But with the little that I do have, I learn now, to just trust and let go.
Everyday, I work more towards smiling. When I wake up, I thank my Father for waking me up and for healing me through the course of the night. I spend time with His Spirit. He has given me so much more reasons to live in the first place. I get to see Him.
I thank my Father, for He has stripped me so much and thought it much to mend and mold me.
I have always been on my spiritual walk, but it is only now that I realize that He was always calling me to meet with Him in the much deeper parts. He is calling me out on faith. He thinks much of me to call me out and reach Him in the much deeper parts of life. He meets with me in secret. I get to enter into His secret places, where He reveals so much. He allowed me this much access.
To love is be the servant. To even begin to think like Him, means to give of oneself wholly and purely out of love. There is none higher. He gives of Himself because He loves. He gives Himself because He loves.
When He thought to make the earth, He considered man. He considered much to make the earth the paradise He wanted to give man as a gift. So that man can live and taste and experience His great love that He had for his own creation. He wanted man to experience His great love that He had to give.
He created His portion to be holy as He is holy. His portion; the vine and life of the earth.
It is my lesson, then, that pain and suffering are great lessons and blessings for it forces one to go much deeper than what meets the general eye, to search the heart and soul, to meet with our Father in the deeper ends of life.
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